the journey is the destination

A potpourri of actions and thoughts

missdipikaxo — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 03:22:40 +0000

Currently, I am at a stage in my life where I do not have any idea when or from where certain emotions emerge and evoke actions that normally would take me quite a while to do. I still take forever to convince myself I am not doing anything crazy.. yet now, at the end, it just all seems wrong. This President’s Day break came at a good time, or this psycho mix of craziness was planned well. Whatever the case is, I really do not know what is going on. Like I do.. I just don’t know why certain things are bothering me.

I feel like a bad person, because I don’t find myself constantly thinking about my family problems.I pray to God and I think about it often… yet I wish I could be support my Mom and Dad more. The problem is I don’t know exactly I would go about that. If this goes the wrong way, my life will break apart in ways I can not even imagine. I really hope that God is listening to my family’s prayers… please. We need you to help us get through this problem. Please God, let the end go well. My dad has done so much for us.. please do not let us now face bad times. Please bless us. Please..

If you think this is bad, wait till junior year.

missdipikaxo — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 03:52:10 +0000

My reaction, “whaaaaaaat?!” How can there be something worse than this year. I mean it’s not bad. I just don’t like it. There are so many other things to think about, other than just grades. It makes me realize that, yes, at the time, freshman year was hard. At least, grades were my only worry! I wasn’t bothering with SATs or any other stuff for that matter. Maybe the last two weeks have just been a mess. That’s definitely very possible. Today’s HOSA competition was a great experience. Not going to lie, I’ve never been so scared in my life. I was quite honestly scared shitless. The guest speaker was so powerful. I love the Coach Carter quote. It = life. Basically, 4th place.. going to States. I’m a happy camper. So two days left of this beautiful three-day weekend:

Study: French & History
Do: Bioethics ( Finish both assignments), Physics, Anal, Virology

dear dipika,

missdipikaxo — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 04:53:08 +0000

congratulations, today you’re going to be 16 years old. I guess birthdays have always been about presents and cake. I mean… not always, but most of the time. But now, I feel like I’m acutally growing up. 15 was just plainout confusing.. too old to be stupid, yet too young to actually care. Now, we’re getting somewhere . We can drive! WATCH OUT WORLD!It’s exciting. All that stuff that I thought of when I was little.. all of a sudden, seems reachable. Look! I alread havea credit card! I’ll get a car soon! I’ll be off to college! No! Bad topic. But this is from yourself, before the amazing day commences, I’d like to pat me on the back, and say congratulations. 16 years down.. who knows how many more to go. But just remember.. to live every moment up. With every year, laugh a little more, learn a whole lot more, and fall in love with yourself… all over again. Be glad you’re who you are, because that’s the best I’d want you to be. Somethings are just the way they are – they can’t be questioned… so don’t question them. Life is never complete without bad times – they’ve got to be there.. grow from there. They’re there for a reason. Be strong, be happy, be smart.Ace your SATs, raise your GPA, and suck up to Dr.D ( next year!). And always remember, if someone asks you how you do it all.. the answer is ” well man, i’m just living a life.” Happy 16th. Congrats, fantabulistic, enormous. And always remember.The most important people in you life – familia. love them. love yourself. live life.SWEET SIXTEEN <3 .

I feel as if I’m cured.

missdipikaxo — Thu, 03 Jan 2008 22:52:21 +0000

Like I had some deathly disease.. & I’m finally cured.Over it.

Another Year Over ; A New One Just Begun

missdipikaxo — Tue, 01 Jan 2008 03:01:41 +0000

Take the time to work, It is the price of success. Take the time to meditate, It is the source of power. Take time to play, It is the secret of perpetual youth. Take time to read, It is the way to knowledge. Take time to be friendly, It is the rod to happiness. Take time to laugh, It is the music of the soul, And take time to love, And be loved. – Adapted from an Old Irish Prayer Sometimes, I just can’t believe that the years pass by so quick. Even though it sounds really cheesy, I can perfectly remember being a 7th grader back at PPHS. It’s so scary that by the mid of ’08 I’ll be a junior. In this past year, I’ve learned quite a lot. I think this year really helped me mature internally. I learned that work truly is the road to success, and that everyone is here with their own purpose in mind. And that in the two and a half years I have left at BCA, it’s important to leave everything else behind and give it my life. Because in the end, these high school years are what determine my future. And Honestly, it isn’t all about the grades. Sometimes, it’s about knowledge. Sometimes, I’m just glad I am who I am. With this new start, I’m just going to live the life I love and love the life I live.Two Thousand and Eight. Ohh Snap.

Damn, that city is full of you.

missdipikaxo — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 03:45:34 +0000

Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas, Nevada. Biggest shock of my life was when I found out the area I’ve believed was Vegas… never was. It’s like un-something-ed Paradise. I believe the Paradise part. My just about 2 day trip to Las Vegas (i guess) was pleasing. I got to see all the hotels and the strip again, and I actually saw other things. I’ve never really ventured off the strip… so this time when I did I enjoyed it quite a bit. Venetian will always be my number one. Wynn holds O.D. sentimental value.. but this trip’s winner? Bellagio. Besides George Clooney was there. AND! Their gelato is orgasmic. Seriously. Everything was so beautiful. It’s so sad Vegas gets old in like 3 days.. unless you took other tours.. like Hoover Dam and Grand Canyon. I’d love to just..enjoy. What I’ll always remember from this trip… the magnet, of course. The realization.. all though I find it everywhere that’s related to him.. but yeah, I love you. That’s cool.Such a pathetic little child.

Christmas Eve with the Pencil Story

missdipikaxo — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 20:47:29 +0000

The pencil maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box.”There are five things you need to know,” he told the pencil, “before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and you will become the best pencil you can be. One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in someone’s hand. Two: You will experience painful sharpening from time to time, but you’ll need it to become a better pencil. Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make. Four: The most important part of you will always be what’s inside. And five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.” The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart. I love this story. It tells the story of life.. of what an individual should always remember while they mature. I can definitely see where “sharpening” comes into life. Now that I think about it, those moments of “sharpening” have changed my life completely. I’ve become a better, more admirable person. Not to anyone else – to myself. Something else that I’ve just begun to understand is that everything is so much more pleasing when you do it for yourself. Having someone special is always nice, but just because you don’t have one, doesn’t mean you shouldn’t spoil yourself. Life only comes around once. Life.. is for living. And in the end, life is what we make of it. So let’s make it rock.Merry Christmas Eve. To you and to everyone.

But why’s the rum have to be gone?

missdipikaxo — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 06:15:35 +0000

I finally understand why that line is beyond amazing. Pirates was so good. Now, I just have to watch 2 and 3. Vegas. I feel drained.. of emotion. I let go.. I was brave. I still am.. yet I yearn to love him again.I will not. never.

Oh the weather outside is frightful…

missdipikaxo — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 23:58:35 +0000

Mmm. Holiday season <3. Yesterday night was a city night. We decorated the tree in the city and we got Christmas presents. It was cute. This year was a double whammy – Thanksgiving and Christmas! Score! Mom bought me two shirts from Juicy yesterday. Today, I convinced her to g out with me and get two more. Haha. Other than that, break is mad chillll. I’m not doing much, which is always fun. Vegas in two days.. Excited.

Yay! Report Cards!

missdipikaxo — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 01:36:49 +0000

Well, I told Pumo I’d quit winter track.. but I’m not so sure I want to. I enjoy it.. I just wish we did more at practice. I really do love the sport and all. The highlight of the day: Report Cards!

American Lit II(H): A
Biotech Lab: A
Experimental Science I: A
Francais III(H): B
Intermediate Chemistry(H): B-
Intro Physics(H): A
Math Analysis I(H): A-
Technology II: A
World History(H): B+
Zoology: A-
Driver’s Education: A

Everything is going good. I’m happy. I know I can pick up my grade in history, so that makes me happy. An A- in French would be amazing, and I’ll try very hard. The rest is fate. Yay Zoology! Yay Mrs.Stott! Yay A- and no B+! We get our Chem and Physics tests back tomorrow; I’m kind of scared.. Oh well, no benefit in fretting over the past.Winter BREAK <3. As of today, there is no work left in school, YAYYYYYYY <3. I just want to say goodbye for a decent amount of time. I love BCA but enough is enough. Toodles. Ta ta. A tut a l’heure. Chere, Colette.